This Is What My Natural Birth Plan Experience Was Really Like

This Is What My Natural Birth Plan Experience Was Really Like (

I worked through my pregnancy. It was only the week before my due date that I went on to take my maternity leave. I worked as a gymnastics teacher and did not give too much thought as to what labor would be like, as I was confident with how strong I was. After all, I had overcome so many injuries.

I was not expecting to go into labor the day I did. I was busy setting up my baby’s room when I first felt something. As I had worked through my pregnancy, I had not gotten the time to put things in place. The contractions started as cramp-like pains. And I initially just brushed it off. When they began to get more and more intense, I called my husband, who sped home from work. My overnight bag was not packed, as I had not expected to go into labor so soon. So my husband hurriedly put things together. On the way to the hospital, all I could think about was how unprepared I was. This was not how I had envisioned it happening. Slightly disappointed with myself but excited for what was to come, we checked into the hospital.

This Is What My Natural Birth Plan Experience Was Really Like

The doctor told me I had only just gone into labor and hence, still had a couple more hours. The contractions were very gradual. At one point, I remember thinking to myself that this is not so bad. By midnight the contractions began to increase. They became more intense and more frequent. I remember squeezing my husband’s hand, thinking it can’t get worse than this because if it does, I am not sure I can bear it. Each contraction was more painful than the last one. Still, I stuck to my decision to give birth naturally.

By 4 am that morning the pain was too intense to bear. I was clutching onto my husband and the nurse begging for help. I asked them to give me an epidural, but the nurse said it was too late. I was exhausted – physically and emotionally.

This Is What My Natural Birth Plan Experience Was Really Like

Then the doctor came in, and after checking me, told me it was time to push. I was stunned but

relieved that this pain would soon be over and I would be able to hold my baby. With that thought in mind, I said a prayer and began pushing. I did not think I was capable of it, and right then, I only wanted to cry.

Each push felt like the last one I could make. The pain was excruciating and blotted out all my thoughts. I forgot the reason for this pain and that only demotivated me further. All my joys of being pregnant and a mother were forgotten. I wanted to give up and take a break. That’s when the encouraging words of my mother came in handy. She reminded me of the life inside me and about how long I have been waiting to meet her. Saying one last prayer, I continued pushing. As much as I would like to remember each and every detail of the process, since then my memory is vague. I only remember focussing on pushing. It was only when my doctor told me to open my eyes and see my baby coming out did I realize she was there. As soon as I looked at her, all the pain vanished. Everything I was feeling and had endured felt worth it. I was still physically tired but so happy. When I finally got to hold her, I was overcome with emotion. It was the first time in my life that I had felt such intense love. I knew right then and there that if I had to go through it ten times over, it would be worth it.

This Is What My Natural Birth Plan Experience Was Really Like

Looking back, I realized that while natural birth is painful and scary, it’s also worth it. I was able to walk right after I gave birth. Would I go back and opt for an epidural? Maybe. But did I regret my decision of natural childbirth? Absolutely not.

Being able to give birth naturally is still my biggest victory. Nothing I had done in my career was ever that painful. But being able to hold my daughter made every minute worth it.

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